Wednesday, March 30, 2005
My leg's getting better now! x)
School's alright today. Kinda bored though. Qians didn't come today. Nobody offer to buy malay food for me! Anyway, I've already spent the money on my literature O'level book! Heh. I guess I lost my literature book! Ugh! My dear notes! ): I'm starting to hate bio & no longer look forward for lessons. 'Cos of the fucking Miss Rai (or whatever it is spelt.). She kept picking on Chans & I. Whatever we do, she'll pop by & open up her throat and throw some awful voice out. Her boice grosses me out, makes my hair stand! Yuck! & I absoluately love literature to bits & pieces! Heh. Qiaos tasted some ink! :D Hahaha! Chans just slapped the worksheet on her face and stupid qiaos went to stick out her tongue! Hahahah! After school went to compass for lunch. Then home!
Helped sharilyn with her blog just now. I'm so bored.
Tuition now. Update again later!
I love you. (:
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005
I'm in pain! ): My knee hurts.
Stop bothering me, pain. Get lost. ): I'm so bored and tired. I need sleep. My eyes are like half closing! Haha! Gotta help buddy with her templete first. Then, I'll go off to do my art reseach. Shall make full use of my time.
"We're gonna go drinking someday right?" I've told sass this dont-know-how-many-times-but-that-day-never-comes thing. We need someone's place, someone who's old enough to get drinks, someone who's house has got heck-care-parents, comp, aircon, big tele, phone. (: Heh. Someday! but don't know when. Oh wells.
Patrick came to school today. He's doing great, I guess! And I miss him! Oh my lord. And he went jellyfishing today! So cute.
I don't know. I really wanna tell someone what my heart wanna say. I don't know who to turn to. I need a hangover, I want a hangover. I'd spit out everything. My heart aches so badly when my heart speaks and no one hears. MY heart has got so much to say, so much to carry. I know I can't take it anymore. I gotta carry on. I don't know who's the one I can trust. When I've finally found someone to talk to, that person is either busy or after talking, they give back useless comments. ): Like what I've told yj, she needs to wake up. Afterall, I'm referring to myself. I'm still in my dreamland, I need to wake up. yj can't always stay in the branded goods shopping centres, while I can't always stay with my jam. my jam's heart is with someone else now. (: Happy for her lah. But I still want my jam. I still need her in my life. (: My heart wants to cry, speak, scream, shout, be heard badly. Sigh. SOMEONE HEAR MY SORROWS.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much. ):
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Monday, March 28, 2005
Last update before I go off bed. (: mum just came over to talk to me. Sigh. I'll just treat it as a lesson. I don't wanna repeat what I've done again. I keep wanting to ask mummy this, but dont have the courage to do so. "have you ever regret giving birth to such daughter who gives you nothing but disappointment? or have you ever hope that you didn't had me at all?"I know I'd cry. I just shut up while we were talking and she cleaning up my wound. ): mum & dad, I'm sorry. x(Sigh. Treasure the people around you before it's too late. Silly buddy apologized to me just now. (: For no reasons. She just said she wanan apologize. Hahaha, I accepted her apology anyway. We're both sad people. So sad people unite. :DDD You know that I love you, don't you feel the same way too?
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Day started off GREAT with a scolding from my mum, then a FALL at school in front of everyone at school early in the morning & my mum found out about "my baby & I".
Talking on the phone with serene now! :D I love her.
Have you ever regretted not treasuring someone in your life? I did. Sigh. Why didn't I. )x.
When you tell me you love her, you miss her, my heart aches. x( Ohwells, I will let go. I will let her have you instead. xD I'll be happy for you.
I'm outta here. Update more later. Tired for now.
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
BOO. ): I don't feel good. I'm upset and confused. Some nice soul who's willing to let your eardrums burst listening to my nonsense, please call me now.
Just loaded my pictures. Dumb cousin of mine didn't managed to save me. Kept asking him online, but no reply! Hah! But after awhile, I figured out how ta do it. I needa upload those photos in the photo album, send the photos to the people in the photos! Hah! Parents are out for dinner, I'm here doing project all alone. GRRR. Don't talk about project. Something terrible happened just now.
How would you most likely to feel when the clique is doing the project together but you're out of the team 'cos they have got enough people already? And now, you're left outside alone. Before I can conclude anything, I considered what the other party would feel. For me, I know I wouldn't feel good. I would just keep telling myself, I'm okay when in me, I'm not o-fucking-kay. It's a terrible feeling and I've been through that before. It's not like I don't want the whole clique to do together. I want, but we've got no choice. We had a hard time thinking who to be in, who not to be in. I mean, I want the clique to do together but HOW? But now, it's still the same lah. Whether the instruction sheet explains four in a grp or whatsoever, everyone's in. I don't want any conflicts 'cos of the project.
I know there's some hidden conflicts in the clique, but we just don't wanna say anything 'bout it. We just remain gossiping among ourselves 'bout one particular person(or more). This is another huge problem. I don't expect my secrets to go around in the whole clique 'cos somehow I don't really trust some people. Ohwells, I don't know what I can do 'bout this.
I'm tired of showing you how much you mean to me, how much I love you, how much I want you here. Despite the many times, you took every moment for granted. Words are the only thing I've to take your heart away. You think I don't mean every word I've said to you. )'x
P/S: I'm so sorry, mansticles. I still love you, y'know?
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Friday, March 25, 2005
Towned with my deardarlings today! :D Qiaos went dating, mans couldn't come out.
I was home till around 1. Went to sis's tuition place then off to pan pacific hotel for lunch! :D I was pissed with everyone in the family including myself though. =x Ohwells, Dad drove me to Isetan to meet Chanel, Nette and Sass. xD Nette and Chans went for a movie while Sass and I went to FEP to take neos, have tea! :D Hah! After that, met them again at Isetan. Took a train down to City Hall. Walked our way to Raffles Hotel for a comedy! It was great! :D It ends at around 10pm. Went to the opposite Mac's for supper. Walked our way back to the train station. Nette, Chans & I went home while, Sass went to marine parade to find her brother. :) We had much fun though. Home at around 12mn! :D
I love you. (:
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Do you even know that I'm down when all of you just walked out of me like that? No one knows.
I ain't feeling too good since yesterday. Talked to amanda quek, xiuwen, yaojun and tricia while doing my claywork Cried a little. Talked about the past, reflected on the entry on xjie's blog. (: Like what amanda said, not until you get pinched badly, you wouldn't know what is pain, what is hurt. She gone through far more than I do, I'm sure. I know life is really unfair. I'm starting to accept the fact already. I'm glad I've friends, family and a proper life to lead. I shouldn't ask for too much. Love ain't an important issue in my life anymore. I'm trying not to put it as an issue lah. I still need love, I have to admit. Like what buddy told me, wait for love to come instead. I don't wanna search for it. I'm tired of searching. It always turn out to be the wrong one whenever I found one. Just like you- Sigh. Maybe it was dumb of me to be so serious in a relationship when the other ain't serious about it at all. I shouldn't dwell so much about the past. Snap back to reality.
Stayed back in school to do my claywork yesterday. Finally finished two bowls. Now, I'm left with a sculpture and plate. Must finish by April fool. (: Heh. I don't know what to do for my sculpture though. Oh, I love art lessons. Heh. It brings our class closer. Heh. Now, I know at least there's someone who's willing to listen, to care for me. What xiuwen and tricia said to me really made me feel much better. I love them lah.
(all in chinese)
ME : It's been so long since someone wants to listen what my heart wants to say.
XW : who say! You got us what! You can always call me!
ME : "Hello? Glynis ah? What? I playing basketball lah!" then hang up on me le.
XW : No lah! I won't de!
ME : Okay okay.
T : cannot cry anymore ah. cry so scary de. I scared.
ME : okay okay.
(before I left.)
ME : I'm going off with persis first, you all clean up then go home k.
T : AYE. cannot cry anymore ah. You cry, then no more Mac's breakfast okay?
ME : okay okay. (:
XW : Remember to call me!
ME : okay. bye.
Sassy's sculpture is almost done! Qiaos is starting on it though. And I haven't! Okay, stop chanting.
One more thing, I got Mac's breakfast from Tricia yesterday! :DDD Hahah. Sweet little thang. She loves buying for us. It's a way of showering love and.. wasting money. Hah! Mans didn't come school for two days. ): And i miss that patrickstar-catching-jellyfish thingy!
My sis is freaking irritating for chanting behind me, looking at what I'm doing, freaking looking at my entry 'cos she wants to use it. I hate it when people STARES at the comp while I'm using. GRRR. I know she did in on purpose lah.
I'm outta here. (x
You're so wonderful to think about but yet, so hard to live without. xD
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
I really want a turn-back-time machine. )x
Some memories just got stuck on my head today while I was alone. As I look back, comparing the present and the past, she's happier with her than the times she was with me. I realised I bought her much pain and sufferings. She had to suffer herself to give me the best, all this while. But all along I didn't know, until this very day. Sigh. But well, I'm glad things turn out this way for her. I don't have any evil thoughts or whatever. I just wanna see her happy, I'm happy enough, even though the one I love isn't her anymore.
For one, I never loved someone so much before. For two, this is the first time I ever have someone that got stucked in my head for coming two months. (not that I still love her, yes?)
It's so weird to look into her eyes again. Memories would just come chasing after me. I don't want. I told myself I'm out of love. Really OUT already. I don't want those memories to come back again. I know it would take quite some time for it to recover. Sigh.
Okay, drop the topic. School is rather crazy today. Ms Sek is a perfectionist. -screams. GRRR. Everything she does, she wants perfection in it, which make her students( like me?) go crazy. And I didn't know there's such thing as re-corrections? I had never done it before. But Ms Sek taught me to do it! GRR. Okay, whatever.
I'm outta here. x)
I don't want you back.
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Come on if you dare. You wanna pick a fight? Bring it on. Why not reply my message? I'd appreciate it if you do. I ain't scared of a 14-year-old girl / bitch like you, y'know? Your face somehow make me feel like slapping you. wanna try? BRING IT ON. thankyouverymuch.
Argh. It's pissing me off. You know, everyday I hear shocking news like, this girl is attached to that guy who's kinda cute and they only know each other for a day. AH! and for your infomation, that girl ain't VERYVERYVERYVERY pretty. I'm not pretty, I know that. That girl is dirty, disgusting, no figure. Okay, I know. I'm ugly and has no figure but I'm here saying people. -slaps-
I feel so uber dumb! -slaps hard- UGH. ): I wanna see you tmr, please? Sigh. It's been so long since I've seen her. If I'm not wrong.. It's last month? Boy oh boy, I miss her. )x Oh well, I can only pray hard that God is listening to me and my prayers. Is he listening? x)
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Monday, March 21, 2005
I HATE PEOPLE LIKE YOU! I HATE PEOPLE LIKE YOU! ARGH!
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
Oh, I gotts add on something. Now I know she's in love with someone else. (: Her nick proves it all. I'm gonna be alright, I guess? I doubt.runohrun. i'm so in hatred with you. I still want you lah!
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Oh well, I don't feel good at all. I don't feel like attending school tmr. ): I'm kinda down though. Damned homework undone. Thinking about what's gonna happen tmr turns me off. I really don't wanna go.
My phone just got confiscated anyway. )x Feb's bill was $76. This month's bill is $63. UGH. It haven't reach the target though it went down! Sigh. Let them do whatever they want lah. I don't wanna bother anymore. They can't contact me without phone anyway. Hah. Oh, anything just ring me at home. Leave a msg with anyone who answers it if you want me to call back. If it's a missed call, I'd call you back afterwards. (:
I guess I gotta ask qiaos back for my hi-card. (: Shall start saving money again. I wanna get the one with free incoming calls. Heh. But one problem, where do I guess get the phone from? SCRAM!
Okay, out with nette today! (: took neos! Haha! The pen sucks. It made the handwriting so ugly. Anyway, the photo is nice! (like of course, it's us! =x) Nette told me some shocking news. AH! come thinking about it, I feel disgusted. A girl like her (not nette) has got so many suitors. Yuck. Nette even agreeed strongly with me. She has got body odur, she doesn't bathe, her teeth ain't clean (I don't think she did brush them, maybe once in awhile). AH! One word, disgusting.
Okay, I guess I gotta go. My sis wants to be in the room with her before she dose off. I want my phone, badly! UGH!
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(: you know what? I'm home!
Just got home last night, 11 plus. I went there in one big bag, and came back in three BIGGER ones. Hahaha. Oh yes,my cousin went along too. Which is quite a surprise. 'Cos he never tag along whenever we go overseas. And this time, why he wanna follow is becos,
ME: eh, why you wanna come with us? i thought you wont like to follow?
HIM: aye, why leh? cannot ah? nothing to do in spore lah. everyday training only.
ME: girlfriend leh? how long le?
HIM: pan ke tou mei you hao ma? long ke lan ah. (not a single girlfriend can. long your head ah.)
ME: serious? how casn you live without?
HIM: aye, fuck you lah!
ME: we go shopping leh. not like you, go training leh.
HIM: han na! so much to say.
UGH! so irritating. Okay, anyway, i just finished unpcking my stuff. heh. I've got no place for new things..! Mummy says i need a new room. Heh. I suggested we should move all our things to aunt's place since her place is so big. Hahaha. My mum just went "hah." Heh.
Okay, I'm meeting nette! :DDD Gotta run!
I miss you, my sweet love.
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
HELLO PEOPLE. (:i'm in the hotel using comp. (: it's free anyway? i guess so. i miss the clique so much. oh wells, i bought quite a lot of things though! spent about 2000 sing dollars already! )x nvm, as long as im happy. (: i'm coming home tonight! finally. heh. 6.30 flight. kinda tired though. didn't sleep well. the rest are still shopping at the opposite shopping centre, cousins are sitting at the lobby waiting for me. hahah. (:
I wonder how am i gonna pack my stuffa at home later on. hmmm.. maybe i'll just dump them aside and pack another day. mum will unpack them if i dont pack them, leaving them aside for some time. =x
This place is full of gays. =x serious! i'm not trying to insult. (: some look really great with BIG BOOBS. others look so guy-ish. Tsktsk. -shakes head.
shall go off now. LOVE!
CLIQUE.
hey babes! i miss you all! ): I guess i would be seeing you all on sunday right? YAY! =D I love you!
we finally talked! it was just before i left. (: AWWWW.
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
My sister is irritating me with the damn annoying piano! she can't play! She can only play one song. )x GRRRR. The louder and awful-er she plays, the louder my music will get.
School again later. (: I'm not done with my claywork yet. Nette, Chans and Mans coming to accompany me and sass. They're towning after that, I guess. My shoulders hurts. ): Oh my god. My dear 80 bucks now is left with only 15 bucks! *SCREAMS. How the hell did i spend it. -slaps. All my fault. I can't control money. =x
School was hella fun yesterday. I gained quite a number of things! :DDD I helped Tricia with her work. She buying Mac's breakfast for me on monday, a lollipop and chocolates! I'm gaining weight. Nvm, I'll enjoy first. Qiaos helped YJ. She gained quite a lot too! Mac's breakfast. Ah ahahaha. (: Funfunfun! I'm looking forward to this afternoon. Heh.
We stopped texting. We stopped talking, practically. I don't know how is she, she don't know how am I. I so sure, I ain't the one for her. She isn't looking for me, she don't need me anymore, right? If not, prove it to me, that I'm wrong. I wish I was wrong. ):
I
Love
You.
(:
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
HOHOHO! sundays are boring, so are saturdays. ): Chanel's fashion show is on today. Shall go down and visit her later on, I guess. Nette and Sass are waitingfor my reply. Needa ask my mum. =x I wanna go shop shop shop. Heh. Like I've got the money to do like that. TSK. Ah well. Going down to aunt's place again. Boring lah. There's nothing I can do there. GRRRR. )x I love this song. (:
This poison’s my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
Pick the scabs and pick the bleeding
And assume that it was all in vein
Popping a scab that's never healing
It had almost hit me in the face
A burning bridge is so misleading
Poison’s more important now with the pain.
*
Let it bleed
And take the rest for what it's worth
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying, you might wanna’ sing.
The fire department couldn't drown the city
They didn't even try to wash it clean
What did you think, that I was sober?
Put me out ‘cause I'm on fucking fire
I’m popping a scab that's never healing
I'm proud that I kept this clean
The most that I can do for you is keep on lying
I'm tired of lying, I think I'd rather sing.
*
Oh, oh, oh, oh you might wanna’ sing
Ha, ha, ha you might wanna’ sing
Ha, ha, you might wanna’ sing
Ha, ha sing
You might wanna’ sing
You might wanna’ sing
You might wanna sing or scream it!
This poison’s my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
Pick the scabs and pick the bleeding
Yeah, assume that it was all in vein.
Let it bleed
And take the rest for what it's worth
Watch the fire
Ima’ fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying, you might wanna’ sing
Ha, ha, ha you might wanna’ sing
Ha, ha you might wanna’ sing
You might wanna sing or scream it
Mummy's screaming at the top of her voice 'cos my music is rocking the whole house upside down and making her head feeling heavy. HEE. (: I like the song ma. Just like her, liking oldies what!
Though you're far away, I'm always here to stay. (:
Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart. :D
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
I died in my dreams. Home alone! (:
Parents and sis went out an hour ago. I'm bored. Making bread with cheese and ham for lunch! (: It's toasting in the toaster now.
Aunt gave me plenty of chocolates yesterday. She cleared her fridge which is filled with chocolates! YUM! Fatfatfat. Uh huh, the fridge is FULL. There's chocolate everywhere! I guess, I'll bring it to school on monday when I go back for my claywork. AH! I'm reluctant to go back. I heard something I don't wanna know lah. Come thinking about it, YUCKS. I don't wanna go back anymore. Okay, maybe something else would make me wanna go back. "Shreak/Monster Inc/Si Qi Hao, Kueh Bong/Ah Bong/Chee Bong, TRITRI"! The three of them make me wanna go back. Hahaha! They never fail to make me laugh lah. Afterall, I find the class ain't bad at all. Lynette's impression to me is getting a little better. I'm talking more to Nicole and Sharon. Shyan is nice and funny. Hui Ting is nice and helpful. Jasmit, Jayshree, Janet, PONG and Shi Jing are the best people to crap with, and fool around. I just love the class, as well as the people (: 3C rocks my socks.
I didn't bring back bio and chem textbook home for homework. I thought I could just less bother about them but.. I think I wanna get it back on monday and do it. Heh. Kelly say, I kai qiao le. Now, more tong shi. Ah hahahaha.
I'm still bored. I guess, I'll go do quizzes.
and baby, that's how you captured my heart. (:
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Friday, March 11, 2005
(: I wanna be your laydee.LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! yes, it is the last day. meaning, no more homework, no more scoldings, no more runnings in the morning! HAHAHA! and that which also means, no more lollipop from Yao Jun, no more seeing of clique, no more laughing together! ): anyhows, I'm happy lah. I'm going off to for many many shopping sprees! I seriously wanna get nice flops, though i have a few already. heh.
School had long talks today. Mass, too. (: Was fooling around most of the time. Heh. Was looking for neos to look at. Hahaha! School always got problems. TSKTSK. I no longer look forward to school 'cos we gotta wear real neat uniform to school when school reopens. I don't wanna wear that UGLY uniform. Maybe I would like to transfer. -shrugs- shall see how.
Oh yes! miss sek called my dad early in the morning. 'Cos of my expired MC. (like whatever lah!) She TRIED to be nice lah huh. (:
I'm so tired. Mans and Qiaos didn't come today. Less entertainment. Lesser laughters, too. AH! I didn't really laugh alot today. ):
Sass was in her dreams when we were slacking in compass.
S:what if i pick up a wallet, inside got 5 $1000 note. wah, i'll be rich!
G:who will do that, sass? bring so much money, never kena rob before ah!
J:yeah lor!
S:pay fines, pay bills la!
G:you're dreaming. anyways, if it really happens, you'll share it with me, right?
J:no, she'll give us each one note.
then the both of them started pulling me. each hold one arm. I just said this, "i both also dont want, i want to go home can anot?" they let go. hahahahah. I so love the weird twins. (:
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Thursday, March 10, 2005
Oh my god! I'm so in love with him! He's so hot!
Utt is so hot!! AH! He's mine lah, Qiaos! I don't care! You got Keith already. He's mine. All mine! BLEAHS! xP All right. Enough of CRAPS. -.-"
Sports meet today. No school. Heh. All right. Met mans, qians, yao jun, xiu wen and tricia at compass. Took 156 to Serangoon Stadium together. (: WE WERE ALL LATE LA. Okay, got into the stadium, assembly, cheered, ran, blah blah blah. I LOVE THE CHEERLEADING! xD I LOVE THE DANCING SO MUCH! -slaps- (wake up glynis.) Overall, we got in third again this year. )x sigh.
After sports meet, clique, including Ruiwen, we all cabbed down to cine for a movie. Watched Hitch! (x Boring in the beginning! Real bored! But towards the ending, it's quite okay lah. It isn't REALLY funny, to me. I almost fell asleep. =x After the show, went to feel our empty stomachs! We were so damn hungry! Heh.
Took neos. xD Walked around. Sass bought a mini mini skirt! (: It's great! Looks prefect on her. I wanted to get it too. But, they don't have the one I want anymore. )x Home after that.
Oh oh! I musn't forget! Happy 9th anniversary to you, buddy! ah, i love you so much. (: thanks for everything, yeah? You always make me smile whenever I'm down. :) You're so precious. Buddies never part! xD
ah, the person she loves isn't me. ):
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005
I'm sad. ): Sigh.
I’m not the happy me today. Sigh. I shouldn’t have read her blog anyway. It makes me wanna give already. Maybe I should just let it go. Not the first time already. i won’t get to be with the one I wanna be with this time.
School’s a killer. ): there’s so much of work to do. Holidays assignments and everything. I’d be away. And there’s something that is stopping me from going. I don’t know what is it but.. sigh. It’s blocking my way.
I’ve got no mood to blog anyway.
I’ll let her call you “mine� instead. I’ll let you go.
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
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Monday, March 07, 2005
If this ain't love.. (:School's great today! Except for some ATTITUDE SHOWING PEOPLE. She almost spoilt my day. What's up with her? Whatever lah. Ohwells, I've got back my results! Ain't that good. But it was better than I've expected. (: Maths - 20/50 (I thought I would get single.)Chemistry - 12/25 (Damn! Half more mark to pass!)Chinese - 26/50 (I thought I would just flunk it.)
LALALA! (: I think it's okay lah. Shall try harder the next time round then.
I've got plenty of work to do for projects.(yeah, AGAIN!) Oh yes! I made an archievement today! (: I came home at 2! Hahaha! Slacked my way throughout the afternoon online. Burning and downloading songs! :DDD Shall do it again tmr! Heh. Currently, I'm in love with the song 'Obsession'. No more 'Tong Hua'. Still have lah, but ain't listening to it that often anymore. Hahaha! Now Sass is in love with Tong Hua. I love the way you freak it like that. My table is so messy. Okay, gotta run. I need to do stupid chemistry assignment which I didn't hand in today. GRRR.
Just thinkin' 'bout you baby, got me twisted in the head.
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Sunday, March 06, 2005
Okay, I can't stop laughing at the comedy show I just watched. Hahah! Was talking to mich and both of us (plus our mums!) were laughing real hard! Mich was having difficulties laughing 'cos she's having a bad cough. She coughed and laughed, coughed and laughed. Hahaha! I keep trying to clear my throat. -ahem- Saturday, 050305.Outing with clique! Okay, it wasn't the whole clique though. Mans couldn't come. ): She missed out the fun. Sigh. Oh well. Finally caught the movie, A Moment To Remember! :DDD But only sass and me went for it. Qiaos watched it with Keith the day before. She asked Nette to accompany her and she did. (: Chanel can't rush in time to watch the show with us 'cos she has got some modelling interview. The show is really nice. I cried three times. =x Sass held back the tears again and again! Hahah! People behind us cried as though the bfs wanted a breakup. :x The one beside me kept wiping her tears. Hahaha! Okay, I shouldn't laugh! I did tear too! After the show, we went to meet Chanel. She came with Gough 'cos Gough is left all alone. Anyway, she left after awhile to meet Cheryl. After that, we went for lunch at yoshi in taka. Sass and Nette left for church, Qiaos went to meet Keith, left with me and Chanel. We walked down to Far East to take neos. We saw plenty unsightly things. (: After that, Chanel went to meet her friends, I went off to take train down to City Hall to get my mp3! (: Okay, I seriously need help with loading songs into my mp3! Anyone? Sunday, 060305.Okay! (: Dad brought the whole family to Hai Tian Lou for lunch! I had 'Buddha Jump Over The Wall' again! (: $68 for one. Sis and I each got a bowl. =x I keep making fun of the name. I like it to be 'Buddha Bang The Wall' instead! xD heh. Daddy is so nice suddenly! Thanks dad! -hugs-
After lunch, went off to get my hair cut! x) Not very satisfied with my hair though. Nvm la, wait till it grow. :) went to junction8 after that. Bought stuffs needed for tmr. Bought ingredients for sushi-making! :D hahaha! Promised mummy I would reach home real early to help her with the sushi! (: I don't know if I can keep that promise! Ohwells, shall try. while im typing this, when i look out the window, its all dark and black. =x After that, went to senbawang for dinner. It's dinner by the bay! Ohmylord! It's so beautiful! I told my mum I wanna celebrate my next birthday here. Hahaha! Oh, Aunt and family came along too! Aunt supported my idea! Hahaha! :D Home after dinner. A splendid one. (:
Ohwells, i feel so tired after typing for so long. ): shall go put myself to sleep now. Heh.
I shouldn't have send you that message. I should have just kept it all to myself. I should have just shut up. Promises were somehow meant to be broken. (but not to me.) Ohwells, I did the wrong move, did I? -slaps myself hard- How dumb else more can I get. )x I hate you lah. Why you never message me? I want to see your name on my cell phone screen now lah! do you know that I don't want you to let go? ): I miss you.
(: Actually, I bluff you de. I don't hate you, I love you!
; stick with you
Friday, March 04, 2005
I miss you so. ):(: Just came back from compass not long ago. Bathed, went online. Ah. I smell nice. Heh. Just uploaded new pics. Mum and sis just went off to compass to have LUNCH. At this time hur? (: Today last paper! Oh my lord! Damn happy. Like finally it's over. So now, it's time for partyyyy! xD I hope I can go out tmr. (:
I hate ahbengs and ahlians. )x -pukes- Okay, don't talk about it. It's making me pissed. Just wrote a long letter to Mans. hahaha. It's all about life. We're always bitching about how bad or good life is. Or sometimes, why god wanna give us this and that, etc. Afterall, it is still our life. We only live once, so live it happily. Forget about all those pain and sorrows. Keep them all as memories. I'm a happIER girl. (: I really am. I mean, i want to be. So, I am. Glad that I've picked myself up now. Courage is all back here with me.
Yao Jun suddenly never reply me! ): I bet she fall asleep! Haha! She is always falling asleep anyway! Oh well, shall go and do some stuffs.
Ps: Tong hua is still playing !
you used to make my night so bright, but now, where are you?
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
I miss your name appearing on my hp screen. (: Guess what? Yao Jun promised me chocolate/sweets/lolly everyday! So sweet of her! Actually, I asked it from her first. But well, she agreed. She's so nice. (: Family went out to aunt's place for dinner. Told them I need to stay home to revise my work, so didn't follow. They'll bring back my yummy yummy dinner later on! Tong hua is playing on my player, again! (: Well, I'm supposed to study? Hahaha, I'll do it later lah. Maybe after surfing net. heh.
Chanel and Qiaolin got natball training today. They went off after doing class duty. (: Waited for Nette. Took a cab down to cp with sass, mans and nettes after that. It was raining monkeys and donkeys okay! Got all wet though. Hahah! But well, it's been so long since we've played in the rain! I'm so happy. :D Saturday is only two days away! xD *SCREAMS! I'm so gonna sing my lungs out.
Talking to Amy online. That silly girl ah. Think so much. Tsk tsk. Eunice also ah! Another one. Tsk tsk. Told them they could be happy if they want to. (: just like what i always tell myself to do. Though I may look so happy on the outside, inside you dont know there's much pain, so much to say. No one wants to listen, no one wants to learn me a shoulder, or a listening ear. I told myself I'll keep everything to myself. I'll bottle every feeling of mine. I won't wanna show it. I'll just tell everyone I'm still the happy girl. The more I tell to someone, that someone will have more burdens to lift. I rather suffer all the pains and everything alone, than to add on to someone else's. I'll listen to everyone's says if they want me to. I would. I won't want my friends to feel alone. Anyone out there, feel free to talk to me. I would always be there. :D
I seriously love talking to mans. (: I feel so free talking to her. It's like everything and anything under the sun. She always make me smile lah. Okay, shall go study now? hahha.
When will I see you again? I miss you.
; stick with you
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
I just can't seem to get you off my mind. She's always up on my mind. I wonder if she's really the love that I love. I don't wanna love. I'm afraid. -shakes head- I can't get tong hua off my mind. (: I love it so much! Nobody's home now. No CT tmr! Yay! Finally a day for me to rest. But, friday got maths, chem and bio! -CRIES! Anyway, I'm gonna start my revision earlier. Studying bio first, I guess? It's easier lah. (: Sauyan sending me the song "Obsession"! (: hahaha. She wants my Pug Jelly cd. I'll be nice. I'll bring it tmr. So bored! Nothing much to do online actually. I just found out something. I forgotten to pass those chocolates that were meant for buddy! ): nvm, I'll pass it to her if fate meets. LALALALA! I'VE GOT A MESSAGE! (: and it's from buddy! -jumps! So happy. (: I was hoping she texted me to tell me she's okay, she's fine so i could stop worrying and wonder to myself how is she. Sigh. Karma by Alicia Keys is a quite nice song! Oh fugly shit. Mummy's coming home. She just called. I think I've gotta run run run now? hah. (: Can I have you with me right now?
; stick with you
The play at school today was so like me. (: SHUT UP GLYNIS. Nique told me not to dwell on self pity. :) I'm a happy girl. Why bother what kinda fuck she is. -shrugs. I love being single. (: I'm happy being single what! Heh. Gotta run for piano now. But what about my bottled up feelings? No one is there to listen. ):
; stick with you
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Okay! (: School has been awful. Common test started today. ): I'm so sure I did badly for literature. Very sure. I wrote so little. Maybe just 3/4 of my writing paper! Sigh. Nvm, I'll try harder. I promised myself I would go play play play everyday once CT is over! Clique outing on saturday. (: Going to kBox! Mans and Chans's voice came back already, so we decided to go kBox! :B I'm so happy about it though. We're so gonna sing out heads off, sing till our voices go dead, sing till the glass breaks! =x Heh. Sass even gave up her Malaysia shopping trip to go kBox with us. How sweet! C: The song "tong hua" is so nice. (: Though it's kinda sad, but it's nice! The song "shou fang kai" also nice. Sad song lah. (: Okay, I've gotta run! Got tuition! will you runaway from me if I confess?
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